“The highest form of ignorance is when you reject something you don’t know anything about.” Wayne Dyer
Are you open to changing and growing? Or do you try to keep things the way they are despite the Universe’s hints?
Growing Can Be Challenging
I’m a day late posting this blog because I needed to spend yesterday growing. It wasn’t the sort of growth I like. It involved downloading new software and learning to use it, and it was very challenging. One piece, Scrivener, is what I believe will be a very useful piece of software that will make my writing and compiling books so much easier. I’ve been putting this off because I didn’t want to deal with the learning curve. But I couldn’t finish the paperback version of my book without doing this, so I took the plunge.
The second software was unexpected. When I received the book file from my friend Brad Swift who formatted it, I couldn’t open it because it was zipped. (You technical people know what this means.) My operating system is supposed to have the ability to unzip, but, in fact, it doesn’t. It has a bug in this area, so I had to download another program just for zipping and unzipping. Isn’t that just zippy!
Oneness Will Bring Us Help
Fortunately, I had some good help—from Brad, who is a coach and creative thinker. We tried everything to get that file open, but finally had to admit, something was wrong with my computer. I also had a great tech, Jeffrey, from Scrivener emailing like crazy, analyzing and suggesting the next step. It was a long day. Sometimes I left the computer to cry, sometimes to scream. I even stopped to read inspirational thoughts once. That didn’t help.
Well, I messed up the downloads more than once, but fortunately I could delete them and try again. I wanted to give up more than once. My brain felt totally fried. Despite a part of me saying, “You don’t have to do this now,” I knew I did. I knew that if I gave in to that part of me that is the helpless little girl, I would be very unhappy with myself.
Awakening to Our Inner Strength
You see, as a child who was often sick, my overprotective mother often told me I was too weak to do something or that I would hurt myself if I pushed too much. So, I felt weak and helpless for a long time until I began to dance and feel strong. It’s at times like this that my little girl sneaks out again, and I have to remind that part of me that I have recovered from helplessness and can do this difficult thing.
We all have messages from the past that occasionally haunt us, but if we are willing to grow, we say, “Ah, there you are again. Sorry, but I need to move on. I’m grown up now.” Just as flowers need good soil, enough sun and water to grow, we must nourish our own growth. It may involve feeding our inner selves with meditation, a walk in the forest, or an inspiring book. Or it may mean trying to do something we have no idea how to do and deal with the frustration and our deflated egos as we try and fail and try again until we succeed.
Having the Courage to Try
Despite my mother’s fears that I would hurt myself, she taught me a contradictory message that has been so powerful. She insisted that there was no disgrace in failing, only disgrace in not trying. If you never try, you’ll never know if you can do it, and you’ll always wonder.
My file is now unzipped with the document sitting beautifully in the new software as if it had been born to live there. Do I know how to use this program? Sort of. But I’ll learn more, and I’m already envisioning how it will help me write my next book. Thank you, Brad and Jeffrey. And when this paperback is on sale, I’ll let you know because it is a story of growth, despite many challenges, and I hope it will help others to grow too.
How have you grown lately? Please share.
©2012 Georganne Spruce